The Heart of a Lion, Socially, a Clutz

I’m an introvert with plenty of silent strength.  I have the intense determination and the inner strength of a lion but I have the social awkwardness of an overweight nerd with glasses.

You’re a loaner!  Why are you alone in your room while everyone else is chatting?  Do you enjoy being alone?

Hell no, I enjoy talking to people but people will think I’m weird if I get quiet and run out of words.  I don’t enjoy being shy or alone.

I’m trying to get over the shyness but when I tell myself to act anyway, my nervous energy shuts me off.

If I I’m at a party, forget about it!  I’ll be invisible because I’m not talking or making people laugh.  I’m frozen with nervous, paralyzing fear.  I want to say something but no words are coming out.

Someone get me a drink or I’m going to have a heart attack!

A Lion Sleeps in the Heart Of Every Brave Man
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Just shut off the bullshit excuses, get over yourself and let it go!  Talk is cheap but bullshit walks.

Forget about the past and move forward past the baseless fear that works against you daily.

Stop being a social coward and put the fear behind you!

Ok, today is the day.  You’re going engage people in conversations no matter how silly or insignificant the conversation becomes.

Why are you so freakin’ nervous around people?  Do you think they are going to kick you in the balls and slit your throat for saying something?

It’s ridiculous.  Snap out of it!

Don’t be an asshole; say something, anything to break the silence!

What do I say?  What happens if they ignore me?

Really, that’s what you’re afraid of?  What a chicken shit!

Just bullshit, it’s not rocket science.  Silence is the killer, talking is the answer.  Too much silence and they’ll think you don’t want to talk to them.

Get off my back, man!  I just don’t know what to say, if they say hi to me first then I’ll know if they really want to talk to me.

What, that’s all you got?  That’s a pretty stupid strategy because they’ll think you’re a jerk and ignore you.

You have to initiate.  What’s the worst thing that can happen?  Most people won’t bite.

It’s simple.  All you have to do is say, “Hi, how are you doing or how have you been?”

Ok, I’m going to tell them right now.  But, it’s not the right time because it’s noisy and they’re talking to somebody else.  I’m going to wait.

Oh shit, I waited too long!  Now, it’s really getting awkward.  That’s it!  I give up!  Where’s the closest exit?

Somehow I’m going to defeat this shyness and become a social hero or will I become a hero of truth?

Sometimes socializing comes naturally to me with words flowing easily and freely but other times it gets awkward with silence.  I get lost in deep thought.

What is one of your greatest flaws that get’s in your way without fail?

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